Sorry you guys; it's kind of an emo rant.

If possible; don't read it.


Guhh; I just messed up. I mean, I messed up really bad. I don't want her to read it, because it'll just sounds like I want sympathy. I don't need sympathy, because it was my fault. I screwed up. And i feel so bad about it. I was laying on the couch crying for 30 minutes. That's how bad i was feeling. Don't feel bad for me, I don't deserve it. I messed up. And it's my fault. That's that. I just wanna type it out. Since, I don't sound as sincere on the computer when I apologized. And I didn't wanna say, "I feel so bad I was crying. I'm sorry." That's just stupid. Why should I expect sympathy when there were ways for me to avoid this. I know it's my fault, and you know. . .I didn't know that I messed up at the time. I really didn't. And then she told me how mad everyone was at me, and I freaked out, I didn't realize I messed up so bad. It hurts, because her mom and her brother, and she's mad (they like. . hate me). Their all really mad. You can tell by the tone she said everything, I mean, she was mad. She really was. I was trying to clear it up with her, and tell her that I heard it wrong, but you know what, that's my fault. I should've listened better. I don't think I even deserve to tell her my side of the story, because I thought about it. . and it's just excuses. If I could I'd walk to her house right now, and apologize to every single family member. I'm always messing up too. I just never listen, I never. . .my communication, basically, I do listen. It's just, I don't listen well. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I can't even stand right now, I mean I can. .. it's just.. .then it start to hurt more. I think I'm going to write a letter to her. I sound like a little whiney bitch. The feeling in my chest hurts makes me feel like I can't breathe. So I push it down, and it feel a little better, but it makes me feel like I'm suffocating again. Man, why'd it happen today? It's Monday. That means I still have to see her all week. Sorry about this you guys. But I needed to say it somewhere. I wanna just go to sleep, and wake up, but I know, I can't just "Escape this", so I'm willing to apologize to her parents. Or so whatever it takes to make up for it. You should've seen how ANGRY they were. //sigh// I'll just do my best, and try to get through it.

every.

fucking.

computer/laptop.

in.

my.

house.

hates.

me.

All the compus/Lapu's are totally fucking up and freezing on me. I'm lucky to even be on right now. *sobs*

This computer's youtube is busted too. D;

And there are spiders on the window in front of me.

WHY DAHLIA, WHY?! *sobs*

WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?

As for art, lol, it's been put off longer. *sobsob*

So I can't draw shit here. *sigh*

WELL, hiatus? XD

I'm getting a puppy! First time in. . .uh. . .9 years? Ahaha.


I'm naming him Soybean, but it's kinda weird since his fur is black, lulz.


I'll take pictures later. . .he's not here yet either. My parents are bringing his home soon. I'm so excited. <3

My sister's (~tishie12) getting her own puppy too. She doesn't know what to name it, though. Har-har!

Ahh, I'm so excited. <33

BUT BAD THINGS HAPPEN WHEN I'M EXCITED. ;A;

Next Kiri: 6918~

Catch it and I will love you forever, and ever.

And I'll draw you WHATEVER you want, just. . .don't judge me if it's hideous. : D

I need the screen shot, ma' dear. <3

Hiatus from dA; I've been watching KHR, so I've not been going on dA much. I'm always here, I'm just too lazy to reply to your comments, or comment your pictures. So, I'm hiatus from commenting, really. XD

When I get less lazy, I'll submit all the fanart, and works I've been doing, so brace yourself's for SPAM. : DDD

SO; see you. : D